It's been awhile...

It really has been some time now....I am really bad at keeping up on things sometimes and that is when things start to slide. I have been working on a lot of things lately, a lot of projects to keep me busy. Work is stressful right now, okay, EVERYTHING is stressful right now. I have some ideas that i would love to get off the ground but I am afraid of failure. After very much thought (and sleepless nights), I have learned that you cannot succeed without failure. So i guess i am going to go for what i want and see how it turns out.

If you had to throw away either your TV or your computer, which would you choose?

tv cause you can always watch your shows and movies online lol

ask me anything.

Chocolate or Vanilla?

chocolate

ask me anything.

Have you ever been fired? If so, why?

yes, being late

ask me anything.

Do you believe there's intelligent life on other planets?

yes i do, with as vast as the universe is, it would be a waste

ask me anything.

What 3 things do you think will become obsolete in the next ten years?

flat screen tvs, iPhones, obama

ask me anything.

Would you rather be rich or famous?

rich

ask me anything.

Are you a morning or night person?

lol its 153 AM so i would say night

ask me anything.

What was your favorite movie as a child?

wizard of oz

ask me anything.

Who's your favorite musician?

well im going to switch musician to band and say Cold

ask me anything.

Would you rather work at a large company or a small one?

small one...maybe even my own one day

ask me anything.

If you could ask God one question what would it be?

thats a tuffy...

ask me anything.

Would you rather be a zombie or a mummy?

zombie definately!

ask me anything.

It's been a little bit...

Well it has been a while since my last post, lost my internet. Well I have it back now. But, I will admit, it was kind of nice to not have it.

Sewing:

I have finally come to the conclusion that I want to learn how to sew. So, as of today, I am currently looking for a sewing machine. Anyone know any good models out there to start off with? I don't need nor do I want anything too fancy. After all I have to learn on this one.

Well another work week is done and it is now time for the weekend to begin and I can't wait to spend time with my little buggy. I look forward to these weekends so much.

So until I have more interesting things to talk about, I guess this is ta ta for now!

Another Photo Challenge

I will admit, I have been going "photo-challenge" happy lately. I love doing them I can't help it.

This is a photo challenge for Sailor & Company. This challenge is all about UNTOUCHED photos of tattoos. I love tattoos, after all I do have 13 of them and plan to get more.

And with that said, here is the tattoo that I am submitting:

[ story behind the tattoo ]

I have never really publically said why I got this tattoo. But as we all know, most tattoos come with stories. This is the story for why I got this one. Since I was thirteen I have been a cutter. I was extremely depressed to the point that I couldn't feel any emotion at all. I was numb. Cutting was an outlet for me. In a way it reminded me that I was still alive. And over the years it steadily got worse and the cuts got bigger and deeper. In my mind I truly believed I would never make it to see 21. Well it was nearing my twenty first birthday and I was proud of myself for making it. I think I was watching Miami Ink, or some tattoo show for that matter, where they were talking about the cherry blossom and what it represented. They said that they represented how short life really was. And I thought, perfect! I NEEDED to get my scars covered up, but I didn't know how. It was that show that helped me figure it out. So now my scars are covered up but they help me realize that I do have a past. That my past was REAL.

Weekend Getaway

So this past weekend I went to Columbus, OH for a two day rock music festival, Rock on the Range. There were about 37 of some of my favorite bands rolled into two 12 hour days. Each day was long and hot but well worth everything. Needless to say my skin hates me right now. I had a lot of fun and it was a much needed getaway. I took so many pictures and it was really hard to figure out which ones to put up.

[ me & my fiance ]






[ first beer of the weekend ]







[ three days grace ]

Fingerprint

The Paper Mama's Weekly Photo Challenge

The challenge was to take or find a photo with fingers or toes in it. I love this challenge, it is so cute and I had so many pictures to chose from, which made it really hard to choose just one. So this is the one that I chose.

Black and White Fixation

In a Yellow House Photo Challenge

Challenge: Black and White Photograph

It's Done

It's one of the hardest things a mother could ever do, to be away from them for an extended period of time. She left for her grandmother's today and I was a total basket case. I literally started pacing cause I didn't know what to do. This is the farthest away from each other that we have been since I went back to work after maternity leave. You literally feel like you have a huge hole in your life and you're missing a limb.

So what is a lonely mother to do?

I went for one of my famous midnight walks to get a Slurpee. I haven't been able to do that since she was born. It felt weird.

AND.....

I dyed my hair red. It's not as red as I was hoping for but maybe in the sunlight it will look different. It always does, right?

So now....

I'm listening to staind and blogging and contemplating on packing. I really should pack. I mean we only leave in less than 12 hours.

This weekend should be fun and hopefully I will have some good pictures to share with everyone....

Packing.

I have come to realize that it is harder to pack for an infant than it is for myself. They have SO much more stuff that they need to have packed.

Impending Abandonment

This week I will be a complete nervous wreck. I am already getting to that point (slowly but surely). This will be the first time since my daughter was born, that I will be away from her for more than 24 hours. To be exact, she has never slept over at any ones house (sadly I am WAY too protective) and she is going to stay at her grandmother's for four nights and five days. Her daddy and I are going on vacation to a music festival in Columbus, OH. I don't know what I was thinking, this is really hard for me. Yes, I know that all mommies need and deserve a break, but I don't need a break from her. She is everything to me and I know that she will be fine but I also know that I am going to freak out. Everyone thought that she was going to be a Daddy's Girl, but that is so far from the truth. She has me wrapped around every single finger and toe on that tiny little body of hers. I have never spent a day without her. My buggy!

Blue

Paper Mama's Photo Challenge.

This week the challenge revolves around the color blue. So naturally I thought of my beautiful daughter and her gorgeous baby blues....

And here it is...

too much...

I have so many things that I want to to, so many things that I want to start, but very little time to do it. Between working full time and taking care of my daughter full time there really isnt much time left in the day for anything. I have four books in my summer reading list and then not to mention ALL the crochet/knitting projects that I want to start...there are just too many. Sometimes I swear I can just bite off more than I can chew really. And sometimes I just wish I had a friend that I could share all of this with. I mean don't get me wrong, I do have friends, but they don't share the love that I have for crocheting and knitting. I want to do so much more. More to explore my talent. My creativity.

Joy

This is for The Paper Mama's Joy Photo Challenge....

(Hazel 7.5 months)

(Joy)

VOTE FOR MY DAUGHTER!

I dont do this often (at all). But i wanted to try and see what would happen, so please vote for my daughter, Hazel!

http://photos.parents.com/category/vote/id/7/w/18/y/2010?page=2087&esrc=nwphotofaves4a

my daughter.

i♥Vintage

The Beginning.

I started this with no real forethought as to what i was even going to talk about. I could talk about what my life is like and what it is to live a day in my shoes, but in the end who would even care or for that matter, who would even read it anyways? I could sit here and vent everyday but what good is that going to do when the one person that I want to vent to won't even read this? I guess you can say that I have the attitude of "what's the point?". What is the point of all of this? I dont really understand why people blog. Yeah it sounds funny, but this is my way of trying to figure it out. You know, to "dive right in". Its kinda like getting up in front of total strangers and trying to make a speech. Your hands start to shake. Your palms get all clammy. And you downright don't know what the heck to say. Yeah i have said a whole lot of nothing there. And on that note...ta ta!